oh, im still trying~

3.12.09 ♥ 4:08 PM .
update ~

many happened.

but sorry, have no time to update.

&& yeah. i miss my old lifey.

happyyy ajekk.

im still fly like i used to be.

wahahah XD

oke, seriously now aku kat hosp.

adek surgery.

tonsil operation ):

2nd dec i stayed wit him till 3rd dec.

&& yeahh bcos i do love him lahh babe.

saper tak sayang Adik hoi. hehheee.

<3 u adek!

btw on 3rd dec, die bangon pagii && i can see tat die tak feel oke.

kancooong maybe. oke. risaau lahh jgk.

at 7+, nurse told me tat lagi 1hour die hav to go to ot (Operation Theatre).

oke. can see die mcm risauu but i still with him.

&& i kol mama papa && jap lagi dorang smpi.

but aku try nak rileks kan die by gurau2 ngn die smue.

&& can see die oke jugak wen tunggu tat time.

mama papa da smpi && kite spent d 1hr together.

den doc extend d time. && afta few mins......

doc da panggil suro die pegii OT, die tros mcm lain.

Fuh, i cant see my adek suffer. so inside my heart, i jus doa for him.

doa & doa & doa.

atlastt. bile da smp OT.

die masook && kiter jus hope die will be oke.

&& finally afta 1&&half hr , operation DONE.

Alhamdulillah. adik selamat.

thanks Allah (:

oke. now die tgh rest~

mama papa gtg. && maybe later faez dtg to visit him.

oke! Done abt him.

yaaa, about my bday i tot nk blog tapi tak sempat cos very busyy.

so sorry.

but nvm, im sooo haaappyyy on dat day.

&& yeahh, welcome 18 (:

hehehe.

dats all btw. see ya! ;D

pray for adik bolehh discharged cepat (:

Thank You.

Labels: praying hard (:

11.9.09 ♥ 9:48 PM .
meaningless

aku seriusly rase lain. lain gile. aku nangis nonstop. aku rase kite da tak ley continue lagi. aku rase mcm tuh. aku try ignore that feeling of mine. aku terlalu sedih. aku terlalu sedih. aku takde mood for raye or wat. down giler. no mood. kat skola aku act as if aku nie org yang paling happy tetapi deep deep down in my heart, Allah jek yang tau. aku terlalu fikir sgt ke ini fact? ape maksod die ckp mcm tuh that day? still dalam my mind. bukan ku tak maafkan nya kerana kata kata nye tuh. tapi aku cume tak faham mengapa baru skg die cakap nie smue. aku da takde sape2 lagi for nak ngadu. aku hurt. everi nite aku nanges. kalau btol ini bukan jodoh kite, aku akan lepas kan kau. tapi untuk melupakan mu, tidak sama sekali. aku rase kau dah benci sgt ngn aku. dats y kau pon mcm da malas. yes, aku tau kau dah penat ngn diri nie. tetapi selama nie, aku penat macam mane pon, aku tetap tabah menghadapi nie smue. && tak pernah ade niat nk give up & lepas kan kau. betapa hancur nya hati ku nie, tiada siapa yang tau. susah. sampai bile aku kene act as if im happy. aku speechless. ape yang aku tau, aku cume boleh nangis for now. aku try buat diriku busy so aku kill d feeling && lupekan semuanye. tapi bukan itu cara nye. hmm. aku rindu kau. rindu sgt. can i lean at ur shoulder & close my eyes & let me tell u dat i really miss u? really miss u. shepink....................

Labels: i love u and miss u so much )':

10.9.09 ♥ 12:53 AM .
for you.

can i be ur half ?
I miss you when something really good happens,

because you're the one,

I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,

because you're the only one,

who understands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry,

because I know that you're the one

who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time,

but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night

and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other

for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.

The reason it hurts so much to separate is

because our souls are connected.

i miss you so much )':

i miss the old you )':

happy anniversary faez love!

9.9.09 ♥ 11:03 AM .
mirafaez <3

090909

A year 3 months && 29 days.

i think i shud stop crying && move on.

but i shud change myself just for you.

i jus cant imagine without you in my life.

I LOVE YOU && YES I DO.

kenapa sekarang baru kau katakan ini semua sayang..?

why?

shud i continue wit u or jus let u go as u want it that way

argh!

i just cant let u go dear.

im reali sorry~

reali sorry~~

i've hurt u.

kesal~

give up!

you gave me second chance but.......

can i change?

will u wait for me?

ur words keep playing in my mind &&

i jus cant do my last paper jus now )':

all dis while,

kau simpan semuanya.

u've been keeping all dis alone.

&& u jus told me baruu nie.

why? why?

ur reason : bcos u didnt want to hurt me.

im sorry my dear..

its all my fault.

im so sorry~~

)':

maafkan diri ini )':

i love you so much!

20.7.09 ♥ 10:02 PM .
hanya kau

kau adalah kau.

bukan dia.

maafkan aku.

aku tidak mahu kau sengsara nanti.

maafkan aku.

meaningless without you.

you. you. you.

YES, you!

my purple, i love you.

19.6.09 ♥ 10:09 PM .
satutujuhkosongenamkosongsembilan

Tired of trying,

Sick of crying,

Yeah I'm smiling,

but inside I'm dying.